I'm currently having a mixture of feelings now. I have been feeling sad, happy and down at the same time. So how do you explain that?

My cousin brother left for Doha, Qatar today at around 7 am. My family except me were sending him off at the airport as early as 5.30 am. I am not able to make it as I need my sleep and I need to be at work at 8.30.

I slept late too yesterday as my family came home late from visiting him at his house. I would love very much to see him off but I cant help it. Anyway, I have been quite close to him and I felt his absence this morning.

As I was getting ready for work, I kept imagining his face and how he would have reacted seeing all his family members and relatives seeing him off.

I was told by my sister that he waved goodbye to all before the entrace gate and never to turn around again. He must be crying at that moment. He told me on the night before that he might look relaxed but he isnt actually. He was devastated having to leave his family and relative to persue for work.

He must be feeling happy at the same time that his career has reached its peak, I suppose. At this moment, he should still be on board the plane. He must be thinking how his family is doing right now.

I'm beginning to miss him. Missing all the moments that we cracked jokes together with my siblings. Missing all the moments spend with him. He'll be back after a year of working there and might be off again to Doha.

To my beloved brother Joe,
I hope you are coping well with your feelings right now. I really understand your feelings of having to leave your loved ones behind but that's the path you chose. It's OK, time will heal all that and you will be back to normal. When you have settled down there, you are going to create an email account and email me right? Do so OK. I cant wait to show you my blog and what I have written about you. Hope to hear from you soon. Take care dearest.

From your beloved sister,
Hetti

I miss ya brother. =(

It has been three weeks here in Ministry of Trade and Industry (Department of Statistics). Not too happy and not too sad either. Everything seems balanced now.

I was allocated in the Statistical Planning and Informational Division where I am part of a team that involves in the publication of official statistics for Singapore.

I kind of understand half of their operations by now but the other half is still doubtful. At the moment, I'm missing my previous workplace so much. I miss you IPTO. I miss the moments spend there with my colleagues and bosses.

Things were a little different here though. Well, my colleagues were nice people, so were the bosses. However, I have yet to discover more about the people here.

I have been feeling down today, probably because I'm tired. I slept during lunch and plan to sleep more when I got home later.

That's all for now. Goodbye folks.

how time flies and it's already august now...national day is has just passed...i got the chance to witness the fireworks not with my guy but with my sister...

he's on duty for that day so i just brought along my sister...we went shopping first and then to marina bay...it was so badly crowded...planning to relax at starbucks but when we came at 6pm, the police has already blocked the place...

so we just went to esplanade park to view the fireworks...the fireworks was very grand and nice...for every national day, i will always look forward to that...thats when i will act like a little child shouting and screaming at the fireworks...

actually, i have nothing much to blog about today.........i'll log off....

it seems like yesterday that i started polytechnic education...time flies so fast that three years have passed and that i am no longer a Nanyang Polytecnic student...

i am so happy that i am able to complete my poly education smoothly...i am now proud to call myself a graduate of NYP and i will be receiving my Diploma in Banking and Financial Services this 6th July 2007...

i am so proud of myself and thanks to the people around me for helping me along my tertiary education...for this time round, grads will be wearing a graduation suite...

the one like what university grads wear...hehe...for now,i would just like to embark on a career that interest and suit me...its isnt easy to build up a career but i shall go step by step...

i just hope to get a position in the banking industry...currently still waiting for reply from HSBC...if i am shortlisted, i will be invited to the final round of interview with them...

i am praying so hard that they will call me asap and that will make me soooooo happy to be able to werk with HSBC...

Ya Allah,Kau makbulkan lah doa hamba mu ini...Amin...

right now,im missing all my poly friends...some of them will continue their degree while im planning to work first...

tell you what...i have a new aim in life...i wana get the title 'Doctor' b4 i reach 35...cool huh? insya-Allah...

not that mediacal doctor but Docotor of Philosophy in my area of major...oh my god...i cnt imagine myself to be 'Dr. Hetti Sulasteri'...

hehe...enough of my day dreaming...lets go for lunch....

Ya Allah, aku harapkan yang baik itu datang dari Mu dan Kau makbulkan lah doaku untuk mendapat tawaran kerja itu Ya Allah....Amin....

im feeling very nervous ryte now...its only 10 now and my interview with HSBC is like 4 hours away...dun ask me why, i just do not know why am i feeling this way...

kept remembering some interview answers from research that i have done...i will try my very best to get through this meaningful interview for me...

Ya Allah, Kau tenangkanlah hatiku yang kian terasa getarannya... Kau berikanlah ku cahaya untuk meneruskan temuduga ini...

Kau permudahkanlah soalan yang akan diajukan terhadapku... Kau berikanlah hamba mu ini semangat and terangilah hatiku ini Tuhan...

Aku berdoa kepadamu agar aku diterima bertugas di HSBC... Sesungguhnya aku telah bekerja keras untuk mendapatkan temuduga ini dan aku inginkan restumu Tuhan...

Semoga doaku ini ditunaikan oleh Mu Tuhan...Amin...

i am just so nervous now....

its gonna be 5 soon...time for home sweet home...feelin so tired and restless today...too much work to do...

im lookin forward for next tuesday's interview with HSBC...im thankful to God for i have passed my recruitment test last tuesday...

was so shocked when they called me to inform that i have made it to the second round of the interview...i am so very the excited...

i hope i can be part of HSBC staff...i would definitely love to work with them...still half an hour more to go home...

planning to go for a jog later with my bro...one more thing...my best fren's back from australia...

im lookin forward to meeting her...wonder when will that time be...seems so buzy each day...by the time i reached home,i would be very tired...

now this is working life.........

yahoooooo....! i am very,very,very happy now...i got to go for interview with HSBC next tuesday after passing the first recruitment test...thank god for showing me the light...syukur alhamdullilah Tuhan...

its true what my heart says..i will make it...although the test seem tricky,but i managed...probably im one of the candidate that dresses up well yesterday...

i came formally with blazer and all...i was the smartest there...hehe...so far,i have had an interview with DBS and i have learnt bit by bit of interview tips...

first impression counts...i am like sooooo happy now...i shall do my very best for this face-to-face interview...i shall learn the facts of interview by hard...

i thank God so much for giving me the strength for the interview...only Him knows what am i feeling right now....