Tuesday, January 31, 2006;
b4 goin 2 swensens 4 our deserts...my bez fren, her sis n me went to long john silver 2 hv our meal...we had 3 sets of combo 1 and a set of shrimps...veri nice...dat day was a free lunch 4 me... my fren's treat...all i have 2 do is 2 tag along....
dis is wat we have at swensens marina square on cny...regular earthquake... my fren asked 4 a giant one but was given a regular instead...they made it wrongly...nvrmd...but sticky chocolate chewy was e bez flavour...wowww...yummy...!
back 2day...it's 1215 oredi...lunch tyme...but i've got no mood for lunch...ate breakfast oredi...feelin not so happy 2dae...but still ok...facin a dilemma now...shall not write wat izit...let me juz face it myself...aniwae...if i write down in here...wat can ppl do...they juz read it...i'll be e 1 facing it...4 now...lets change our topic 4 2dae...quite slack in my office now...almost all of us are doin our project...will b due on 8th feb...left a week more and i'm half done oredi...ahakz...dats fast of me...realy duno wat 2 do 2dae...dats y i'm bloggin...loading dis swensens ice cream pic and long john pic oso...will be goin hme at 5 2dae...clearing away my flexi leave...ahakz...can catch up wit my sleep at hme...if ideas do struck in my mind,i'll do my project instead...my supervisors are bz wit their reports...so they won't bother us oso...'love concierge' was last showing on tv mobile...feel so sad...a touching ending yet happy...wana mit gurseet but she went off 2 plaza singapura oredi 2 collect her mp3...datz it folks 4 now....
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8:06 PM
Thursday, January 26, 2006;
hmm...another 15 mins 2 go home...yahoo...seemed very tired 2dae...felt kinda sleepy...ahakz... 2 fil up my boredom,i listen 2 kelly clarkson song...bcuz of u...very nice...fell in love wit dat song oredi...DBS management is cumin in 2dae...now waitin 4 them 2 step into my office...while waitin i blog a while...they takin their own bloody swit tyme...2mrw CRM is goin 2 have a party...sum sort 2 celebrate chinese new year & oso 2 bid farewell to CRM...haha...gud lol...i very cian in here oredi...everydae presurrize 2 do survey...den e worst part is repeatin e same line everytyme...haiz...but dats ok...another 3 weeks 2 endure...hope my next stopover will be blissful...as in slack...ahakz...duno if my guy will be koling me 2dae...hasnt been koling me 2 e past 2 daes...sad lol...but i understand how bz he is in the army...never mind...i still have e patience 2 wait...realli bored 2dae...no kolling 2 do...but im glad enuf....k lol...guess got nutink more 2 write...juz 2 fill my boredom...
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1:06 AM
Tuesday, January 24, 2006;
9am oredi...feelin so sleepy...hate it...cannot sleep in CRM...so blog lor since there's nutink 2 do in e mornin...slept early yesterdae but still feelin sleepy...ahakz...fell asleep while waitin 4 my guy 2 kol...luckily heard his kol...he cnt talk 2 me 4 long...so we chatted 4 only 5 mins...missin him so much...saw a couple yesterday at e interchange...felt jealous suddenly...i want my guy 2 be wit me...but dats fine...i learnt 2 b independant without him by my side...so long i get 2 mit him once a week,im can make do wit dat...2dae is onli wed...still a few more daes 2 sat...gona spend dis sat fruitfully wit him...i wana make him feel dat im not a changed person since he got in ns...i wana tel him dat im still e same hetti dat he knew more den 2 years sgo...took 87 2 skool juz now...met farhan...my cuzin's guy...he told me dat 1 of his frens wanna noe yanie...cuz he eva saw yanie & me board 87 2gether...ahakz...they oso in paya lebar camp...den yanie's guy oso in there...i dun wana b blame by her guy 4 dis mess...but dats fine...i try 2 tell yanie about it...if she's fine wit dat,den its ok...but i won't be e 1 who acts as middle person...i will bring yanie 2 my bus stop wer we used 2 take 87 & ask them 2 exchange their numbers themselves...im juz afraid dat faris will blame me...maybe yanie wont but who noes her guy maybe....
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5:00 PM
Monday, January 23, 2006;
halo...gud mornin...juz reached skool...im not late 2dae...ahakz...chatted wit my guy yesterdae... he told me dat he has 2 b confined again ryte after chinese new year...2 weeks confinement cuz he's goin 4 his jungle trainin...he cnt even kol me 4 dat period of 1 week in jungle & 1 week in camp...;-(...he den mentioned dat i will receive lesser attention from him & dat he wud not be around me most of e tyme 2 take care of me...he den gave me a choice 2 make which i tink is difficult 2 decide...i neva complain dat he alwaes has 2 be in camp...niwae i understand e situation...i have chosen e path of bein wit an army man so im responsible 4 dat...i oso have my other frens 2 entertain me wen im bored...he shud have confidence in me since we have been 2gether 4 2.5 years...he was e 1 who gave me confidence wen we 1st started out e relationship & now he's aso e 1 who took away e confidence from me...i noe dat he does not want 2 be selfish...he noes dat im bored outside...cuz i used 2 spend every of my single moment wit him b4 he entered e army...i noe better who i am...altho i may have alot of frens around me,its only him dat i love..he shud noe me better on dat...he said dat he believes in retribution...cuz he used 2 treat me unequally in e past...he's afraid dat its revenge dat i go 4 now...i noe dat i have no intention of doin dat 2 him...i may have dat kind of attitude but i wud not dare do it...haiz... maybe he does not noe me dat well...it has been 2.5 years but he's lyke dis...its not dat bad actually but it concerns e both of us...it takes 2 hands 2 clap...it takes me & him 2 make dis relationship a success...2dae is our 29th month anniversary...to tink dat on dis date he mentioned dat 2 me...he said dat he's not dat fully commited in our relationship...he believes in retribution & is afraid dat i wud backfire him wen im outside or even play him out...i cannot give him a yes or no ans...cuz its all in e hands of god...i can make decision but its god who confirms it...but 4 now,i really have no intention of cheating him or wateve...cuz deep in my heart...i still love him juz lyke how i used 2 love him 4 e past 2.5 years ago...u have 2 trust me on dat darlin...
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4:45 PM
Sunday, January 22, 2006;
hmmm...its 1245 oredi...time flies so fast 2dae...half way 2 go 2 6...ahakz...completed 10 survey oredi...tiring lol...have 2 finish b4 e new database cums in...more werk 2 be done den...luckily finished mine...so can slack b4 e new werkload arrive...slack,slack & slack...haha...read my ex-classmate blog...haha..he mentioned dat i've met my guy now...tanx lol...maybe its not his tyme yet...wait lol...love will cum by themselve...be patient hoh...waitin 4 my fren 2 go lunch...not plannin 2 eat...lazy 2 eat & e food isnt so appealing 4 me...2 years in skool oredi...so cian leh...tot of changing new blog skin but not yet found a suitable 1 yet...haha...tink my blog is nice oredi...my fren say so wordy...blog wat...its e tot 4 e day...jau came back from lunch...so full oredi...ate rice wit dishes plus fries...k...dun wana eat animore....ahakz...not goin 2 gym 2dae...ifah is sick...mayb goin on tues or wed...felt sleepy now...wana go 2 sleep but confirm my supervisor will nag 1...my bez fren guy buying his bike 2dae...wow...my bez fren got free transport now...count her lucky...wonderin wen will my guy obtain his license...he's halfway thru & he's in e army now...so a bit difficult 4 him 2 continue...sad lol...;-(...but im still happy 2 take public transport 2gether wit him...more romantic dat way...can spend more tyme wit him...miz him so much now...wonder wat he's doin ryte now...haha...will be waitin 4 his kol 2nyte...4 e meantime...dats all folk....
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8:43 PM
Thursday, January 19, 2006;
hmmm....was a tiring day yesterday...went 2 be an NYP Pal & help up in e open house...have 2 be a tour guide leading NYP guest & students from e ITE & secondary schools...yeah...it was fun guiding those people but tiring...cuz have 2 walk around NYP...showing them e different skools in NYP...so far went 2 business and design onli...wanna try goin 2 chemical life science, health science,engineering...sure fun...heard from frenz dat skool of chemical life science offers great display of programmes...uhuh...dat excites me oredi...duno my other frenz goin or not..they seemed reluctant lol...onli jie ying & i are enthu 4 dat...cuz we dun wanna do koling...very cian lah...i want my frenz 2 go...e more e merrier...ahakz...y they reluctant...e open house fun wat... yesterday,my guy called me...he wasnt happy about e thing dat i chatted wit my secondary skool fren...sad ar...:-(...he still upset about dat...he said dat he will consider wether he will mit me on saturday or not...or not he will be goin out wit his pals...hmm...duno wat 2 say oredi...never mind lor...wat can i do den.....
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4:42 PM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006;
veri tired...juz reached skool...late siah...stepped into CRM at 8.50 am but i sign it at 8.35...ahakz...;-)...msg my guy yesterday asking him 2 kol me back at nyte after his rifle training 2 check if he's all ryte & came back in 1 piece...may sound inconsiderate but i really hope dat he came back in 1 piece...i tot he wud not want 2 kol me...but eventually he kol at 11.45 pm...wer i was oredi ZzzZZzz...but i heard e ring tone & recognized dats him koling...he sounded nice...hmmm...maybe he misses me 2 juz lyke i do...asked him if he's ok so on & so forth...he mention dat he will kol me 2dae...yahooooo....;-)....im waiting 4 ur kol honey...juz came back from e gym wit ifah & ridhwan...not so tired but giddy...cuz been on e treadmill 4 30 mis...burn 200 calories & run 3.1km...ahakz...wana b slim...haha...did 24 survey oredi...will complete maybe another 8 more after tea break...really feelin very giddy now...maybe not use 2 goin gym...im used 2 jog at bedok reservoir park...every jog cost 5km...expensive hoh...but i can complete dat...i lyke 2 jog in a nice environment lyke parks...gym is lyke a confinement place 4 me...my resolution is 2 go gym 3 tymes from mon 2 fri...den on weekends go jog at my hse park...u tink i can achive...my wiight is 52kg...wana slim down 2 40kg...haha...will be skeletal den...no lah...maybe 2 47kg...but sumtymes lazy 2 do work out...but will try...duno wat 2 do now...lazy 2 continue koling...juz wana slack...internet server is down now...cannot publish post 1st...if not will be gone...waste my effort only...type so long oredi lol...
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4:57 PM
hmmm....finally e dae has ended 4 me...will be goin home soon at 6 later...ryte now preparing 2 go home & bloggin at e same tyme...juz 2 end my dae by writin e tots 4 e dae...have completed 28 survey 2dae...feelin very tired after talking 2 much oredi...went 4 customer service workshop juz now...3 hours leh...damn bored...every workshop will sure have assignment 2 pass up...in business,there are never ending reports 2 hand up...haha...but never regret my choice in choosin business...my choice is my choice...nobody influence me 2 do business...will be takin 72 to go home...den take 87 2 bedok...wana sleep in e bus later...have been sleepin wit my eyes open at e workshop...haha...wana learn from me e arts of sleepin wit eyes open...? ahakz...will be resting wen i reached home...duno who's at home...maybe my dad cuz he's been home early dis daes... my guy wont be koling me 2nyte...so guess i gona sleep early 2dae...onli 5.43pm...still have mins 2 go 2 6...im 2 bored oredi dat i kept on bloggin 4 e past few daes...haha...guess my blog will be damn long wit all my postings...life is so bored...after skool straight away go home..no wer 2 go... my guy in camp & frens are all tired after attachment...my bez fren has curfew...its juz my luck... haiz....
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1:33 AM
Monday, January 16, 2006;
feelin so sleepy 2dae...slept at 12am yesterday...watched tv & tinkin of my misunderstandin wit my guy...it wasnt dat big actually...but i duno lah...duno how 2 describe...;-(...my guy called me from his camp yeaterday..as usual,we had our chat 4 e dae which will usually last 4 about 15 min..he told me dat he was goin off 4 a rifle trainin at pulau laba camp...duno wat camp is dat... he asked me 2 pray for his safety & well-bein...of cuz...its understood...i wud pray 4 him in everythin positive dat he does...he den proceeded to tell hi baout his dae at camp & how much he misses me...me 2...i misses him 2 so much...i den tell him wat i did in skool so on & so forth...i told him dat i chatted with my guy secondary skool classmate over e phone...he den seemed unhappy wit dat...he told me dat i ever said to him dat he cnt chat wit his other gerl frenz over e phone...yeah...i said dat...but sumtymes he does make it thru to talk 4 over 10 mins...im not talkin about other things dat will jeopardize our relationship...it waz juz a plain talk...about how we are doin and our skool...nothin more or less...he mentioned dat 4 now i do my own things & he does his...y be bf & gf wen u do ur own things...? felt so amgry wit him...i do stand up 4 my rights & say wat im supposed 2 say...i never argued wit him but im defending myself and used my words 2 hit back at him...i dun wish 2 be rude 2 any1...haiz...i really understand dat he wont be koling me at tymes cuz he's in e army and bz wit his stuffs...as a gf wit a guy in the army, i tink its my responsibility to fully understand him...i didnt force him to talk 2 me over e phone 4 a long tyme...2 me, even a min of chat means sumtink 2 me...it goes to show dat he does remember me altho he's in e camp...aniwae...i oso wanted 2 inform my guy dat i'll be goin out my my frens on fri..but how 2 tell if dis is his wae 2wards me...? i may have 2 consider my decision properly 2 avoid misunderstandin...he wont be koling me till fri...maybe e period dat he went 4 his rifle training can make us tink thru of dis...wateva it is...i sincerely pray 4 his safety & well-bein altho we are facing our down in e relationship...dear...i juz hope dat u stay focus in ur trainin cuz u told me dat dis is a real life rile trainin wer life bullets are used...hope u cum back safely 2 honey...lastly...i wana tell u dat u'll alwaes b in my mind & i luv ya sooo much....
**mmmmuuuuaaaaccckkkzzz...!**
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4:40 PM
Sunday, January 15, 2006;
feelin a little tired n thirsty now...have been koling 2 do survey 4 DBS bank since 11 juz now... now only completed 20 survey...we were told by our supervisor dat we are supposed 2 complete 20 surveys everydae...feelin veri cold now in CRM room...wonderin wat my guy is doin now...maybe doin his trainin or waitin 4 his dinner tyme...really miss him so much...honey...i miz ya so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0 dear...hope 2 spend fruitful moments wit u...will be meetin him dis sat...cnt wait 2 c him after 2 weeks of confinement...hmmm...teach tuition 1st on saturday in e noon,den mit my guy at ard 3...wana spend e whole dae wit him..we'll be goin sunwer..noe wat...? uhuh...dats our little secret...no 1 can noe about dat...plannin 2 go 2 bugis or orchard...really hope dat i wil receive my tuition $ on sat...i wana buy my bus concession so dat i can conveniently travel on buses...haha...have 2 start my werk oredi...bubbye....
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11:35 PM
Our hari raya pic in 2004...so long oredi...4 2 consecutive years, we've been wearin blue baju kurung...sepasang kurung biru..haha..datz oso my fav hari raya song...dis pic was taken in bus no 23..on e wae to my guy's fren hse in kallang...wat a dae...
hehe..my guy during the 6th month of our relationship...frankly talkin...he looks way different from wat he is now...used to be lesser masculine den...but now..much more masculine wen he entered NS...pic was taken at raffles shoppin center...ppl change ryte...either 4 e better or worst...
dis was taken at changi airport during my guy's birthday...treated him swensens on dat dae...went 2gether wit his sista...it was e 6th month of our relationship...everythin goes well... juz lyke wat ppl say..1-3 mth-crazy in lurve...3-6mth-promises roll in...6-9mth-misunderstandin starts 2 arise n 9-12mth-decision has 2 be made whether to continue or discard relationship...
12mth onwarrds-MAYBE u are safe...good luck...
my guy n me at takin new print at bugis junction...it was taken 2 daes b4 he entered his army...it's oso our anniversary pic of 27th month bein a couple... oso a memo of his hair b4 being 'chopped off'...ahakz..poor my honey...dun wery dear...u still look in ur best even without ur crown...;-)
hehe...dis is my youngest sista...sec 2 dis year...pppl say dat we do look alyke...e fact is dat,do we..? up 2 ya 2 decide..4 me,i duno...she's a malay dancer in her sec skool...no wonder she poses lyke one...my younger sis...
dis pic was taken at esplanade...it was 2nd of february 2004...i remembered vividly cuz its my guy birthdae dat day...treat him to swensens at changi airport...wat a nice background...my guy snaps photo well...ahakz...
dis pic was taken during e previous hari raya...at e corridor of my hse...looks lyke sum other haunted place hoh...so eerieee...dressed up in green...e uniform 4 e family...looks lyke a moving jungle...
dis is me when i first entered poly...taken in e-plaza by my click of frens...molly e great....ahakz... dedicated to wearin my lanyard..but now slack oredi...wear lanyard to attachment onli....
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6:34 PM
dis pic is taken during hari raya...swit ryte...me n my guy...lyke wedding photo...hehe...we were at hougang during dat moment...on e wae 2 my place for visitin..we took bus no 87 to bedok..e pic was snapped by my guy's fren...by e name of khai...a.k.a public nuisance or tangkal suay... hehe...dats his nick...he's e substance for laughter...ahakz...i infra-red dis pic 2 my bez fren's hp and she mms-ed e pic to her email...tanx yanie...reali appreaciate dat...luv ya...hehe...chat wit my csecondary skool classmate yesterday...fadhli is his name...we chat out our old tymes in skool...how yanie and i used to have dis attitude of goin to toilet without teacher's permission and went missin 4 almost 15 mis...haha...we kena caught for puttin on foundation n wearing coloured lenses 2 skool...teacher said dat we were vain...we then proved to her dat we are able to do well in o level...there u go...here i am in poly...we oso kena caught 4 wearin ankle socks... no worries now...no more socks...poly mah...ahakz...dats all 4 now....
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2:35 AM
hmm...wat shall i write 2dae...feelin bored at hme so i went to my bez fren hse...dats y i wrote dis blog here...tryin 2 surf into friendster but was unable 2...hmm..so unlucky...2morow skoolin... back 2 skool again...start 2 kol ppl to do survey again...damn bored...my guy didnt book out dis week...had to stay in to do extensive trainin...gona miz goin out on weekends...gona miz him 2.. wen i looked into e frienster juz now...felt kinda angry...reali angry...but wat 2 do...learn to take things ez...my bez fren n i are slackin now...duno wat 2 do...listen 2 my hp mp3...tot of goin 2 my aunt's place but 2 lazy 2 do dat...so juz went 2 my bez fren's hse...tot of goin joggin but oso 2 lazy 2 do dat...went 4 a jog ystrdy oredi...waitin 4 my guy 2 book out next week...but dats a bit 2 long...but i guess its worth e wait...hope dat he will kol me 2nyte...even if he doesnt, i understand dat he's bz wit his things...nah...my hands are a bit tired by now...gona end here.....
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1:31 AM
Friday, January 13, 2006;
met my bez fren juz now outside my CRM office...she had problem wit her family..especially her parents & 1 of her siblings...felt pity & sad for her..her parents are 2 much..controllin her lyke as if she's a small gerl..tellin her 2 cum back b4 7 on saturday wen she went out..if it were 2 be me.. i wud hv ran out of e hse oredi..reali cnt take it..now her parents is checkin her hp for any guys dat kept in touch wit her....any pics taken wit any guy...so on & so forth..altho i'm not her..i cud sense e dillemma she's in now..she sandwiched between her family & her own freedom as a teenager...but i reali adore my bez frn...she's not e rebellious type & sumhow listens to wat her parents wanted her 2 do in life...she may appear rough to ppl & even myself...but she is soft at heart...she takes nursing to please her parents decision...if it were 2 b me, i wud rather chase my own dreams than followin their say...reali hard 4 her...as a fren..wat cn i do is 2 comfort & listen 2 her woes...she did dat 2 me when im facin difficulties...so i guess its my task 2 help her in her woes...poor yanie...& about her sista...she another BLOODY ASSHOLE...how cud she bad-mouthed abt her own sista..i noe almost everythin dat happened in their family...i'm not hating her sista 4 no reasons...but she's really 2 much..as sistaz, they should defend one another and not let the other party fall into hot soup...i can only say 2 her dis...please respect your elder sister juz lyke how u respect ur parents...if u disrepect your own elder sista..dat goes 2 show dat u totally hv no respect 4 ur parents, wat more an outsider... no use if u study so high but no self-respect 4 ppl around u...she's totaly disrespectful...she noes onli how 2 respect her guy...cum on.. her guy isnt her mum or dad or siblings...once broken, her guy & her are juz strangers... wait till her guy leaves her...den she noes wat sufferring is...she'll have her retribution...
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12:34 AM
Thursday, January 12, 2006;
elooo...suprisin dat dis mornin doesnt rain...dats gud eventually...or not it wil b hard 4 us
2 head 2 skool...reach my desk at 8.40 2dae...late oredi lor...den go change my
wallpaper on my PC..my fav is CT...u cn c her on e left...juz do up my blog...seems
nice & simple 2 me..a model pic...like dat..;-)... did koling at CRM juz now...did 8 suyver oredi..still got 12 more 2 go..but intendin 2 complete more..god willig...most of my frens
went 4 lunch oredi..mine at 1 later..but still full & lazy 2 go lunch..cuz eat e same thing
every tyme...cian ar...felt lyke slackin & sleepin onli...had breakfast at north canteen in e mornin...had kuat teow and bandung...then went off 2 watch 'love concierge' at mac..my supervisor called 2 ask wer we are..haha..! told her dat we are in e toilet..quickly rushed
bact 2 CRM..feelin bored, i go change my blog skin..i picked dis model pic.. ahackz..
lazy 2 kol after lunch...but bo pien...still have 2 do..lyke or dun lyke, still have 2 force
myself 2 complete...juz my luck 2 get into this stopover...duno wat 2 eat later...wana
eat or not..cnt wait 2 go home..2dae go hme at 5.30...yahoo..! still no diff...onli 30 mins
diff...stay so far...my office is quiet now..left onli e 3 of us..joyce, pey lian and me..& feelin
cold in here...felt lyke meat in e frozer...its 30 degrees in here...but still freezin...brought
my miss sixty jacket here...luckily i remember...if not..i'll turn into ice oredi. felt super
bored oso... but luckily can blog here... no friendster, no msn, no games, no dis, no dat...
so freakin bored...BLOG, u are my life in CRM... i love ya...
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8:32 PM
hmm...wat shall i write...4 e past few daes, it has been rainin...but 4tunately...dis mornin
is a sunny day...felt so happy dat at least my jeans dun get wet animore...face difficulties
in dryin clothes...hehe..! ;-) hmmm... writin my blog in CRM now...so cian...have to kol
later at 11...intendin 2 start at dat tyme... go c my chinese show 1st... e love concierge...
fall in love wit dat show oredi... at dis point of tyme... really miz my guy... he's in e
army now... booking out on 21st jan... still so long... but i tink worth e wait... dearly
miz him & wana c him asap... wana hug him tytely... cum baby... i gif u my bear hug...
hehe..! ;-)... darlin... i miz ya... cum home quick....
*...MmMmUuuuAaaaCccCcKkkkkKzZZzZ...!*
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4:49 PM