Monday, January 16, 2006;
feelin so sleepy 2dae...slept at 12am yesterday...watched tv & tinkin of my misunderstandin wit my guy...it wasnt dat big actually...but i duno lah...duno how 2 describe...;-(...my guy called me from his camp yeaterday..as usual,we had our chat 4 e dae which will usually last 4 about 15 min..he told me dat he was goin off 4 a rifle trainin at pulau laba camp...duno wat camp is dat... he asked me 2 pray for his safety & well-bein...of cuz...its understood...i wud pray 4 him in everythin positive dat he does...he den proceeded to tell hi baout his dae at camp & how much he misses me...me 2...i misses him 2 so much...i den tell him wat i did in skool so on & so forth...i told him dat i chatted with my guy secondary skool classmate over e phone...he den seemed unhappy wit dat...he told me dat i ever said to him dat he cnt chat wit his other gerl frenz over e phone...yeah...i said dat...but sumtymes he does make it thru to talk 4 over 10 mins...im not talkin about other things dat will jeopardize our relationship...it waz juz a plain talk...about how we are doin and our skool...nothin more or less...he mentioned dat 4 now i do my own things & he does his...y be bf & gf wen u do ur own things...? felt so amgry wit him...i do stand up 4 my rights & say wat im supposed 2 say...i never argued wit him but im defending myself and used my words 2 hit back at him...i dun wish 2 be rude 2 any1...haiz...i really understand dat he wont be koling me at tymes cuz he's in e army and bz wit his stuffs...as a gf wit a guy in the army, i tink its my responsibility to fully understand him...i didnt force him to talk 2 me over e phone 4 a long tyme...2 me, even a min of chat means sumtink 2 me...it goes to show dat he does remember me altho he's in e camp...aniwae...i oso wanted 2 inform my guy dat i'll be goin out my my frens on fri..but how 2 tell if dis is his wae 2wards me...? i may have 2 consider my decision properly 2 avoid misunderstandin...he wont be koling me till fri...maybe e period dat he went 4 his rifle training can make us tink thru of dis...wateva it is...i sincerely pray 4 his safety & well-bein altho we are facing our down in e relationship...dear...i juz hope dat u stay focus in ur trainin cuz u told me dat dis is a real life rile trainin wer life bullets are used...hope u cum back safely 2 honey...lastly...i wana tell u dat u'll alwaes b in my mind & i luv ya sooo much....
**mmmmuuuuaaaaccckkkzzz...!**
.: Star Juliet Signing Off :.
4:40 PM
