halo...gud mornin...juz reached skool...im not late 2dae...ahakz...chatted wit my guy yesterdae... he told me dat he has 2 b confined again ryte after chinese new year...2 weeks confinement cuz he's goin 4 his jungle trainin...he cnt even kol me 4 dat period of 1 week in jungle & 1 week in camp...;-(...he den mentioned dat i will receive lesser attention from him & dat he wud not be around me most of e tyme 2 take care of me...he den gave me a choice 2 make which i tink is difficult 2 decide...i neva complain dat he alwaes has 2 be in camp...niwae i understand e situation...i have chosen e path of bein wit an army man so im responsible 4 dat...i oso have my other frens 2 entertain me wen im bored...he shud have confidence in me since we have been 2gether 4 2.5 years...he was e 1 who gave me confidence wen we 1st started out e relationship & now he's aso e 1 who took away e confidence from me...i noe dat he does not want 2 be selfish...he noes dat im bored outside...cuz i used 2 spend every of my single moment wit him b4 he entered e army...i noe better who i am...altho i may have alot of frens around me,its only him dat i love..he shud noe me better on dat...he said dat he believes in retribution...cuz he used 2 treat me unequally in e past...he's afraid dat its revenge dat i go 4 now...i noe dat i have no intention of doin dat 2 him...i may have dat kind of attitude but i wud not dare do it...haiz... maybe he does not noe me dat well...it has been 2.5 years but he's lyke dis...its not dat bad actually but it concerns e both of us...it takes 2 hands 2 clap...it takes me & him 2 make dis relationship a success...2dae is our 29th month anniversary...to tink dat on dis date he mentioned dat 2 me...he said dat he's not dat fully commited in our relationship...he believes in retribution & is afraid dat i wud backfire him wen im outside or even play him out...i cannot give him a yes or no ans...cuz its all in e hands of god...i can make decision but its god who confirms it...but 4 now,i really have no intention of cheating him or wateve...cuz deep in my heart...i still love him juz lyke how i used 2 love him 4 e past 2.5 years ago...u have 2 trust me on dat darlin...