haiz..everything is goin on bad 4 me...i had a quarrel wit my guy...a bad quarrel on e fon bcuz of a stupid gerl dat appear in his life...a STUPID ASS HOLE BITCH...
my guy was on his way hme after off duty at bishan interchange...he was wit his army frens...his army frens saw dis 2 gerls and he wanted 2 noe one of 3 gerls...he asked my guy 2 ask for him on his bhalf...
my guy rejected...my guy asked him 2 go instead...so dis guy went on his own & came back 2 my guy shortly...he told dat e other gerl wanted 2 noe my guy...arghhh...!!
ok..dis guy of mine went over 2 e gerl & they exchange number...well...stupid ryte...they msged all e way in e bus till he reached hme...wat e f***...!
den at nyte during our chat, he told me dat he noe dis gerl...i admit dat he told me e truth & dats gud..unlike me ine past...i noe dis guy but did not dare tell my guy...
cuz i dun wan him 2 feel suspicious wen i actualli regard dat guy as a fren...well im ine wrong..dat tyme we realli argue like hell & dat drift us apart...
but wen we got back 2gether,i realli want e bez in our relationship...i dun wana keep any secrets anymore 2 him..i wana b truthful...he alwaes doesnt trust me...
we luv each other alot in dis relationship but i guess we lack trust...i dun trust him & he doesnt trust me either...we are nearly into our 3rd year oredi...
still no trust..? i muz b jokin den...haiz..2 tink again...wat 2 go...now back 2 e story...ok..he told me he noe dis gerl...i was of cuz jealous & frustrated...i became angry & refuse 2 control my anger...
i kept tellin him off about wat he did was wrong...i swear dat BITCH...yes..im alwaes swearin her & i never regret swearing her...
a fight broke out between us..we scold & debated on our topis on dis...wat puzzled me was dat...my guy does not want 2 tel his so called new fren dat he's attached...
he sais dats not important...if e gerl asked him,den he will reveal...so wat if e gerl duno dat my guy is attached & kept harrasing him tinkin dat my guy is single...?
wat if e gerl has fell in luv wit him tinkin dat he's single...? he's hurtin her by not tellin e truth...den my guy is hurtin me 2...yes,im truly hurt at dis moment...
we quarrelled till he said dat he does not want any communication wit me...he wont be msging me or kolling me till he feels dat he wants 2...he mentioned dat if i cud vent my anger on him,he feels dat he can do e same 2...
wateva...yeah..we quarrelled again yesterday...he went out wit his ITE fren without telling me..his ITE gerl fren which i know...he told me from e day e got 2gather dat there will b no secrets between us...
but he lied..he went out wit a gerl without even informing me...wen itried 2 reach 4 him,he off-ed his phone...can u imagine how i felt at dat moment...?
tinkin about wat my guy is doin at marina square wit dis gerl...? u tel me...which lover wun get jealous if her guy went out wit another gerl...? wat more can i say...
he doesnt bother about my education 2...he asked me if im late 4 skool...? do u eva care about me being late or not...? do u eva asked me how was my exams paper & my results..?
u didnt...its alwaes me who have 2 do e telling...im glad 2 listen attentively about ur army life...yet wen it comes 2 me,u never even bother...juz who am i 2 u..?
i noe im an outsider...dats wat u told me ryte...$25 is an entitlement not a privilege...he gave me $25 every month 2 help me pay 4 my ezlink..e rest is my $$...he's threatening me now...
shud i purposely be nice 2 him wen he's gona get his pay..? of cuz not..im not sum1 who goes 4 ppl's money...i have my own pride...wateva he pays 4 me now, i will repay him wen im workin later...
im not tryin 2 b noble..but im a person who alwaes remember wat ppl did 4 me...i'll never 4get ppl who halped me wen im in need...
we are goin 2 quarrel again 2nyte...about e same damn thing again...well...im done 4...did i light up e fire he puts kerosene 2 it..? or izit e other wae round...?
wat am i feeling now...? im stucked..i have 2 tink of a way out of this argument...i really have alot 2 story regerding our argument but i guess if i were 2 write bits & pieces of if,its by Christmas den i wud complete...
HETTI IS SAD NOW....