im 2 tired 2 face each dae dats passing by...cuz i noe i'll be facin e world alone alone without anyone special in my life...
i've been wit him 4 3 yrs oredi & im afraid 2 face up 2 e reality as e dae cums...im afraid 2 live without him in my life...im so used 2 him dat its hard 4 me 2 let him go...im unwillin 2....
im still hangin in dis matter...i duno wat 2 do about dis...i cannot get 2 sleep everydae...i kept tinkin of him...our wsit memories 2gether...
y does fate have 2 separate us...? y is he changing 2wards dis relationship...? i seriously duno...i may seem happy physically but deep down in my heart,im teribly sad....
im afraid...im afraid 2 face up e reality...i dare not admit dat our relationship is gonna end...i've been tinking thru about dis, but my evaluation is gona take years....
im confused...i hate 2 face dis in arelationship...i want my relationship 2 b as smooth sailing but i failed 2...
there are bound 2 b misunderstanding here & there....at dis moment,i really miz him so much...met him on last monday oredi...
tho we are lyke complete strangers,i still feel dat i love him so much...i may be his lover 4 3 years but i cannot read exactly his heart...
cuz im not a god...i realli duno wat he expects from me...i've done my very best in this relationship & i tried 2 salvage our love....
but 2 no avail...mayb i failed...im juz like clappin alone...it takes 2 hands 2 clap but im doin it on my own...i feel so down...
oh god...plz geve me e strength 2 face dis as e dae passes...its so hard 4 me 2 face dis cuz i realli love him so much....i hope dat one day his heart opens up 2 realize how good i am 2 him before its too late...
b4 i step out of his life....its e most toughest decision dat i have 2 make...i cant handle dis...i cannot take up e challenge....
e more i tried 2 4get him,e more he appears in my mind...e more i tried not 2 msg or kol him, my fingers are juz itchy 2 do dat....wat muz i do......?????
