im in skool now doin my project wit my frens...im so puzzled & confused now...i juz feel so down dat i dun feel lyke doin anitink at e moment...
i tink my love life is gonna end...well,i seriously duno...me & my guy are lyke total strangers now...in e eyes of ppl,we are still a couple but deep down in our heart, we noe wat we are facing...
it feels so hard to say 'i suggest we go on our separate ways'...i juz cannot bring myself to say those stuffs from my mouth...im not willing & i dun have enuf courage 2 do dat...
saying 'i love u' mayb an ez task to confess but this...i noe dat im not happy in dis relationship, especially dat he is a changed person now...i duno how long i can b like dis...
its true wat he said...im draggin stuffs...but believe me,its realli hard 4 me 2 sat those words...morever,i am not willing 2 leave him...
but i noe...i have 2 do it...i have 2 pluck up my courage 2 face e reality...oh god...y are u testing me wit a challenge dat i cannot take it...????
it has been a month since dis matter arises...im living in sadness as each dae passed by...i lived each dae knowing dat i still love him & i still wana b wit him...
but i realize dat is all in fantasy...he is not e same "FAIZAL" dat he used 2 be...i never regreted being in love wit him...i never...
i have made a decision...a decision dat i find it so tough...tougher den O level exams...i juz need my full courage 2 face up e reality...
i duno wat is goin 2 b of me if we were 2 b apart...of cuz,my world will be so dark without any light shining...i wud have no special person 2 talk to, 2 pamper & shower me wit love...
wateve it is,i realli miz our swit tymes 2gether...wateve dat may happen, i shall take it in my stride...
i duno wen am i able 2 4get him...i'll alwaes love him tho....
dear...if ur readin dis...i juz wana u 2 noe dat i never blame you 4 changin...& i'll alwaes love u from e bottom of my heart....