im in skool now doin my entrepreneurship project wit my team mates...altho dis 2 weeks is a holiday, i still have to make it 2 skool for wateva project dat has not been done...we are done wit e biz writing proposal...left capital market & dis stupid entrepreneurship project only...
i duno wether i'll be mitin my guy later or not...he said dat he will be confirmin wit me 2dae but i still yet 2 hear from him...he's bz drivin maybe...
he has passed his TP drivin yesterdae...im so happy for me...alhamdullilah...i prayed 4 him wit all my heart & hopes dat he can make it...my prayers have been answered...he passed...im so happy 4 him...
things have changed now in our relationship...i duno if wether i shud say dat he is e same faizal i used 2 noe...e old faizal dat i used 2 noe is so romantic & takes great care of our relationship...
but now...since he entered e army...he spending more tyme wit his frens rather den me...i tried 2 understand him & b patient wit him...mayb he's under pressure...
i got a scoldin from him yesterdae...i felt so sad...i juz listen & nodded my head as he said stuffs 2 me...am i in e wrong...?
i went 2 bed at 2 am yesterdae...kept tinkin about wats gonna happen in our relationship...everydae,my pillow will hear out my heart...my pillow will see my tears...my pillow will console me 2 go 2 sleep...
i duno how much longer dis stuffy is gona last...i failed...i failed 2 change him into a better person...i guess i have 2 keep trying...
e feelin is my heart is so hard to take on...
i wonder if i can take it in my stride...
it feels like a knife piercing thru...
its feels like im gona lose sumtink precious in my life...
i feel bad, sad & all those negative feelins...
y...y did dis happen dis wae...???????